Shattered and alone..

And when it rains on this side of town
It touches everything
Just say it again and mean it
We don't miss a thing
You made yourself a bed at the bottom
of the blackest hole
and convinced yourself
that it's not the reason you don't see the sun anymore

and no how could you do it
I never saw it coming
I need an ending
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain

And when it rains
You always find an escape
Just running away
From all of the ones who love you
From everything
You made yourself a bed at the bottom
Of the blackest hole
And you'll sleep till May
You'll say that you don't want to see the sun anymore

and no how could you do I never saw it coming
I need an ending
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain

Take these chances to turn it around
Take these chances we'll make it somehow
And Take these chances and turn it around
Just turn it around.

and no how could you do it
I never saw it coming
no how could you do it
I never saw it coming
no how could you do it
I never saw it coming and
I need an ending
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain

You can take your time, take my time.-Paramore..

My heart is ripped,distant,hard and cold.
if you would listen without judging you may begin to understand
why
i hate this so much
this life isn't what i had imagined
damned cursed abandoned is what i feel
you chose to throw away what you know is right for what you feel is good

Is this what you want
is this who you are
why now?

did we leap in to the unknown
were we destined, were we chosen?
did we push this, this life of no satisfaction

i look at you and wonder only to be hurt
youve broken me
youve left me in a place of abandonment
how could you?

impure immoral promiscuous unchaste
youve messed up
broken what was supposed to be sacred

is this what you want
is this who you are
why now?

My only thought of you cannot begin to form into words
hatred anger unforgiving emotions have over come me
why?
i will never understand
whats done is done,not turning back now
you have created this in me
you've broken me

Why now.....

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