Cecily

         "Find your tribe           love them hard" Holidays, Birthdays, random days, Sunday dinners.. Are my most favorite times, because they are spent with my family. I am such a quality time person and so is my husband. which is amazing because Family time is a big thing on my side. We have always been pretty close, and getting together on a weekend for a bbq is something we do often. One of the things i am most thankful for is the relationships i have in my family.. My Mom is my Ultimate Best friend, as well as my Aunts. i cant think of a time where we were not laughing our heads off about some random story or situation.. My Uncles (even though there are only a few) Obvi Girls rule the world.. They are pretty great too.    My cousins, haha they are something else.. We have all had our share of drama with each other, some a little toooooo much (but no ones holding a grudge) haha.           ...

 I've never really felt this way before....     This looming, head in the clouds, focusing on my sad life type of mood. i cant shake it, either. i have been feeling like this for a few weeks now and every time i try and think past it. a huge tidal waves of feelings sweep me away and i am lost for days. I am currently 33 weeks pregnant and for the past few weeks couldn't deal with the idea of being a mom of 5. in fact every day for the last few weeks all i could think about was "why would i put myself through this again" i have had nothing but pain through this pregnancy. My body hurts from top to bottom and i am just so over whelmed with everyday tasks and doings that i cant imagine giving birth to this baby at a time like this..    I went to my regular doctors appointment this week and talked to him about how i have been feeling. i honestly feel no connection to this baby. it has not always been this way, its like one day i woke up and i felt this way.. i ...

Photos from Eden's baby shower this past weekend! So much fun and Eden is SO loved..

Sometimes i wake up in the morning, roll out of bed. actually i like twitch out of bed with my big ole 8 month pregnant belly. walk into the dining area hoping to myself " please let the house be clean, please let the house be clean. In hopes that when my husband released me from sahm duties two hours before the boys bed time, the night before. . He would somehow magically get  all boys to clean house for Momma! Fail!! Instead i am greeted with this horrid smell and kissed with an over whelming amount of dishes and my children are all up asking for breakfast.. Who said Stay at home MOM life was easy? No seriously, who even thinks that?!? The only reason i am actually sitting at me computer writing this is because all 4 of my boys are napping which as you can see from my last blog post doesn't happen all of the time. We have been up since 7 am have had 2 meals 2 snacks. my dishes are cleaned my house is in order. And as i am typing this all i can think about it a big ole Mar...