Can i just be Satisfied with life??

Its been so long since i was able to sit and relax, like physically,mentally,emotionally,spiritually relax..I can remember a time when i was on tour and we were in Idaho, i remember sitting outside of the home we were staying in, and looking out at the mountains..

Honestly, the mountains were this lady's backyard. so beautiful! it was cool and silent, i could hear the wind as it swished by..Ooh so perfect, stress free.. As a wife and mother to a 1 year old Boy and another on the way, when do you find a time to just sit and relax? I LOVE my family, every bit of them. but sometimes i feel over looked. Like i am the "mom and wife" and that's just it. changing poop diapers,cleaning after everyone's mess,cooking,running errands, grocery shopping, back and forth back and forth i go with Lucas..Not to mention Liam is in my belly so im more exhausted carrying him..Really? Don't get me wrong, I love them, but when can Mommy get a break..Yesterday was my birthday and NO i didn't expect a surprise party, a romantic get away or a shopping spree but a little "Happy birthday honey, i love you" would of worked just as much as the other things. nope i got "hey can you wash this? can you change lucas's diaper".. really since when am i not 24 hour mom anyway...
Well anyway that's my sad story, i had to get it out..Now i can eat my pie and move on, no more sulking for me...lol

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