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We loved with a love that was more than love -EAP

Being a Parent is SO hard, i literally live hour by hour. i have a house full of boys constantly making a mess, eating, fighting, Mom mom mom is what i hear all day.. I think to my self sometimes how do other parents do this. How in the world do parents keep their shit together and be a mom.. Well they don't and just because i see what i see on social media doesn't mean its real. and I've learned a lot of that lately. 

There are so many MOMS in the same boat that i am in, stressed over worked under paid and total Mombies.. It literally takes every ounce of energy that i have to get up in the morning . before the kids i might add and cook breakfast. I mean i am currently 39 weeks pregnant, huge and exhausted. lol but i literally hear my alarm and wished my kids would forget about breakfast and just sleep. oh what i would give for some sweet sweet sleep. Yet hear i am, all boys are sound asleep and i am just up typing and eating cubed cheese. Silence is bliss let me tell ya!  You know i wouldn't change it for anything though. there are a lot of people, a lot of women who would kill for the chance to bring a child into this world and my heart breaks thinking about that. So i cant complain, even if i am .2 seconds from turning into a real life zombie... I am blessed. 

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