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only love can hurt like this...

     In life  we all go through rough patches, some longer than others. its those rough patches that grow us, mold us into the people we become. Broken hearts are the most awful things to endure, being torn between making others happy and being happy yourself. something people experience on a daily bases, but what about that broken heart do we learn .. what do we take away from that pain? No one wants to live a life and not be happy, lately ive seen this quote from a reality star thrown around. "living my best life" everyone wants to live their best life, we do.. In a relationship, a committed one at that we are "living our best life" well i'd like to think that we are. But what changes? why do people go from "living their best life", to simply not living for themselves at all?  does that make sense? i like to think that my self worth is actually something that i thrive on. I loved to be "wined and dined" as they say, i am actually a HUGE romantic. i love quality time and physical touch.  SORRY, if i sound like i'm throwing my self out there lol but ill get to the point.
    I'm in a season in my life where i feel, under appreciated, under valued and just not really worth very much. There are some significant instances in my life more recently that have taken place. which i wont mention for privacy reasons. But have left me in a million pieces, mentally and emotionally. And i'm just wondering where do i go from here, where do people go from a broken heart? Can i just leave my hearts broken pieces to mend themselves, its to painful to put back together. I wake up every morning as i'm reminded by moments over played in my head, of things happening that i could never for see.. why must this life be so raw and complicated... this is not living my best life because if it is i want no part of it.... that's all i have for now. 
   

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