Cecily

   On the Eve of one of the biggest life altering changes in ones life, people sat and contemplated their life and what they have made of it.. I know because i am one of them. Yes, i am talking about the DREAM Act. There are SO many things that a person can go through to get on the path of citizenship.. One of many is becoming a DREAMER, in order to qualify as a dreamer there are certain circumstances, hoops you have had to go through to be even considered. One of which is, being under the age of 13 and being brought to the united states between 0-13 years. Two, you have had to spend a certain amount of time i the united states 2-10 years. 3. have proof. that means years and years of school documents, medical records, proof of address, bills, paid taxes and so much more. I mean they have to know where you were at all times.. Do you know how much information you collect from birth to a legal age? So having to go back a sift through years and years of storage containers/boxes ju...

 Eden was about 2 hours old, i got to hold her for about 30 minutes. I tried feeding her, she just wasn't really interested. she would just sleep it was hard to wake her up. So the pediatrician on call. suggested they run a small tube to her belly from her throat to get her some food. Her sugar levels were a little low. So they did that. got some food in her tiny belly checked her sugar levels about 2 hours later, they were still low. Eden was lethargic not really responding like a newborn baby would respond normally. So they decided to put her on an IV sugar drip. to try and get her sugars up and regulated. Eden's body insulin was breaking down the sugar as fast as she could intake it. Its a pretty common thing, but something that needs to be dealt with right away. So she was taken to the Nursery where she stayed for about 24 hours. I was able to see her but not really hold her. I also was recovering from my C-sec, so i was in some serious pain.. after the 24 hours Eden's ...

          Annora Eden Gonzalez                                                                     Born: July 16, 2017   @ 5:55 pm 8 lbs 19 1/2 inches I had the most ridiculous last moth of pregnancy, i went in for a reg checkup on a Wednesday June 28th . Had a reg cervix check Eden was Head down i was dilated 3 and 90% effaced. Everything was all good. i had an ultrasound right after to check on Edens weight because i had Ges diabetes while pregnant. Eden had flipped she was now laying across my stomach, so from my reg check up to two hours later she had flipped.the doctors said Eh its okay she still has some time to get into delivery position aka head down.  And i had started having contractions, they were still pretty far apart about 13 minutes apart. so nothin...

Being a Parent is SO hard, i literally live hour by hour. i have a house full of boys constantly making a mess, eating, fighting, Mom mom mom is what i hear all day.. I think to my self sometimes how do other parents do this. How in the world do parents keep their shit together and be a mom.. Well they don't and just because i see what i see on social media doesn't mean its real. and I've learned a lot of that lately.  There are so many MOMS in the same boat that i am in, stressed over worked under paid and total Mombies.. It literally takes every ounce of energy that i have to get up in the morning . before the kids i might add and cook breakfast. I mean i am currently 39 weeks pregnant, huge and exhausted. lol but i literally hear my alarm and wished my kids would forget about breakfast and just sleep. oh what i would give for some sweet sweet sleep. Yet hear i am, all boys are sound asleep and i am just up typing and eating cubed cheese. Silence is bliss let me tell y...

    Recently i have read a lot of people's , anger,sadness, disappointment, fears and frustrations.. And a lot of it is based on a certain situation that took place in the small town we live in. A lot of people have really just..come to blows over it... A innocent child was hurt. horribly hurt, no child deserves what this child has been going through... And a lot of people are more focused on trying to prove weather or not this certain person had something to do with this child's injuries.. The professionals, have done their jobs. They have recovered evidence, they have come to the conclusion that what this person says happened to the child, just doesn't make sense. Medical professionals have done their jobs and i'm sure are continuing to do so.. And have brought fourth what they believe have happened, based on the evidence...      I have read over and over and over. from a number of people "God will reveal the truth, or we are praying the truth come fourth" ...

Hello Party people, SO had my two weekly Doc appointments today.. ugh Cervix check was good dilated 2 & 70% effaced.. Which is good, making some progress from last weeks check! Eden is now weighing 7lbs 8 ounces she has grown half a pound since last weeks check up, whoops. I seriously need a salad.. Good news is my doctor says i can induce,!! Yay! Next Thursday i have an appointment and i get to choose a date! I'm SO excited, because my body is so DONZO!                                                                           Eden's little foot and hand! So cute!!

    So my body is over producing hormones, SO my face has like this rash from top of my forehead to my none existing collar bones.. ugh!  Every time i wash my face with just a plain bar of soap it feels as though i just had a chemical peel. actually i have never had one of those BUT, i can imagine it would feel a little raw.. YUCK!   I have been talking with my "therapist" once a week since i was diagnosed with Maternal depression, due to the influx of hormones all at once. it has been a few weeks and i feel less like a doomy(is that even a word) cloud is lurking and more like i have NO filter.. I literally say the first thing that comes to my mind. AND thats not always a good thing! Guys i seriously feel like i have diarrhea of the mouth, LIKE i  am here to hurt every ones feelings EVEN unintentional and BELIEVE ME!!! I can not stop it, i feel SO bad 99% of the time..  The other 1% im sure they deserved it :/ BUT i have been working through that, there are...

I'm alive Motivated Determined And ready to SLAY the day..  This Is my MONDAY MANTRA, to my self on a Sunday night.... Hahaha. I am currently 36 weeks, yay!! and SO not ready for Monday.. My marshmallow feet are propped up on two pillows as my laptop balances on my big ass stomach. Almost full term and SO over this heat. it was like 97 today and i sweated through my whole day, my toes were so swollen i could not bend them lol. Can you tell i'm so over this pregnancy. GOOD. cause i so am!   But here's to Monday (with my big glass of milk to cure my heart burn) Slay the day my friends Slayyy away! 

    I'd like to begin with saying,                           "Don't let people treat you poorly because you love them".      In the past 7 years i have learned a lot about "Family dynamics" from merging my family with my husbands. It has been an interesting 7 years let me tell you.. Some things i have learned about peoples view on "family dynamics"  is they are not always the best thing AND i really believe people believe they are doing well when they treat someone the way they treat them.. With that being said, i have learned a lot of what to do and what not to do..       Let me tell you, i was raised in a home that exhibited love, weather it was love through discipline or genuine love.. I can not remember a specific time i went without communicating how i felt about a certain thing or situation. Growing up in a house full of sisters one older than me and four youn...

                Mute math has been my go to this week AND its only Tuesday!  I need energy, SO MUCH ENERGY.. The boys have been a serious wolf pack these past few days anything from fighting to destroying anything in their way.. AND its driving me crazy! Who knew boys would be SUCH a mess ALL OF THE TIME! No i'm serious, I literally have them clean their room twice a day because it looks like a trash pile. I mop my MY bathroom once a day with bleach. were not going to mention their bathroom because their dad takes care of that and i don't even step one foot in there. Its like "oh hey, i'm going to pee not on or in your toilet mom but around it all over the floor..                                                                 Ah!               ...

   Summer storms are my most favorite things.. Growing up, they were like prized possessions because it meant i could sleep and it was justified. rain always = no plans.. lol i MISS those days, now thunderstorms mean sleepless nights and our over crowded bed. Our boys are not big fans of thunderstorms, But my most favorite thing now is that. I look over at my husband with all 4 boys in between us and LOVE it.. My Happiness, my peace. pure bliss... i wouldn't trade those moments for anything..  Okay well, maybe less feet in my ribs. haha..      My husband, has been working a lot lately 60+ hours a week, and on weekends  we don't see him much.. which makes me sad because he is my favorite thing.. And the boys miss their daddy, but i am thankful for him.. He never complains, when i know he is 100% tired, he is always up for anything id like to do.. He can come home from a 14+ day and say "what would you like to do babe" and of course i'm dying to ...

I haven't really figured out the whole Photography+blogging scene.. But i did want to share some photos from a wedding i did a month or so ago..

Summer is here, which means Texas heat is here AND MOSQUITOES Grr!! If you know me at all, you would know that i'm all about planning.. SO our summer is pretty planned out, hopefully Eden comes on time.. We are working our whole summer vacations, outdoor adventures around my pregnancy.. Which we ALL know, pregnancies NEVER go as planned so of course i have a "Plan B schedule" lol So the hubbs and our cubs have planned out a summer Bucket list! Somethings we have done already but the boys never turn down a repeat trip. This also includes fun things we have done and will do more of at home.(for the few weeks after Eden is born) we are SO excited, to hopefully (fingers crossed) fulfill it!  1. Sea world (Yay for season passes) 2.Franklin drive thru safari 3. Thinkery 4.Splash pads 5.Magic time machine 6.Austin Murals 7. Cathedral of junk 8. Movies 9.Barton springs+park+train 10.Swim parties in our new swimming pool 11.Big top Candy shop! 12.Plenty of Kawa...

         "Find your tribe           love them hard" Holidays, Birthdays, random days, Sunday dinners.. Are my most favorite times, because they are spent with my family. I am such a quality time person and so is my husband. which is amazing because Family time is a big thing on my side. We have always been pretty close, and getting together on a weekend for a bbq is something we do often. One of the things i am most thankful for is the relationships i have in my family.. My Mom is my Ultimate Best friend, as well as my Aunts. i cant think of a time where we were not laughing our heads off about some random story or situation.. My Uncles (even though there are only a few) Obvi Girls rule the world.. They are pretty great too.    My cousins, haha they are something else.. We have all had our share of drama with each other, some a little toooooo much (but no ones holding a grudge) haha.           ...

 I've never really felt this way before....     This looming, head in the clouds, focusing on my sad life type of mood. i cant shake it, either. i have been feeling like this for a few weeks now and every time i try and think past it. a huge tidal waves of feelings sweep me away and i am lost for days. I am currently 33 weeks pregnant and for the past few weeks couldn't deal with the idea of being a mom of 5. in fact every day for the last few weeks all i could think about was "why would i put myself through this again" i have had nothing but pain through this pregnancy. My body hurts from top to bottom and i am just so over whelmed with everyday tasks and doings that i cant imagine giving birth to this baby at a time like this..    I went to my regular doctors appointment this week and talked to him about how i have been feeling. i honestly feel no connection to this baby. it has not always been this way, its like one day i woke up and i felt this way.. i ...

Photos from Eden's baby shower this past weekend! So much fun and Eden is SO loved..

Sometimes i wake up in the morning, roll out of bed. actually i like twitch out of bed with my big ole 8 month pregnant belly. walk into the dining area hoping to myself " please let the house be clean, please let the house be clean. In hopes that when my husband released me from sahm duties two hours before the boys bed time, the night before. . He would somehow magically get  all boys to clean house for Momma! Fail!! Instead i am greeted with this horrid smell and kissed with an over whelming amount of dishes and my children are all up asking for breakfast.. Who said Stay at home MOM life was easy? No seriously, who even thinks that?!? The only reason i am actually sitting at me computer writing this is because all 4 of my boys are napping which as you can see from my last blog post doesn't happen all of the time. We have been up since 7 am have had 2 meals 2 snacks. my dishes are cleaned my house is in order. And as i am typing this all i can think about it a big ole Mar...

When Leeland was about 8 Months, My husband and I talked about having one more baby.. We currently have 4 boys and we are So blessed. Our lives are pretty great with our wolf pack, But my heart just felt like a little piece was missing. i would always try to justify the feelings i had, thinking about another child.. Good lord, i couldnt imagine a 5th child. So i prayed about it, and prayed and just really.. actually, both of us just really thought that God has given us this life.and has allowed us to be blessed with 4 boys, we should just take that and be satisfied. really there are a lot of people that are not as fortunate as we are.. Some may say its selfish to want another baby, but we really just wanted a baby girl. We both really felt like God knew the desires of our hearts, and he is faithful to the end.. So we left it in His hands..    Currently i am 23 week Pregnant, and we are expecting our very first baby GIRL!               ...