Cecily

 Eden was about 2 hours old, i got to hold her for about 30 minutes. I tried feeding her, she just wasn't really interested. she would just sleep it was hard to wake her up. So the pediatrician on call. suggested they run a small tube to her belly from her throat to get her some food. Her sugar levels were a little low. So they did that. got some food in her tiny belly checked her sugar levels about 2 hours later, they were still low. Eden was lethargic not really responding like a newborn baby would respond normally. So they decided to put her on an IV sugar drip. to try and get her sugars up and regulated. Eden's body insulin was breaking down the sugar as fast as she could intake it. Its a pretty common thing, but something that needs to be dealt with right away. So she was taken to the Nursery where she stayed for about 24 hours. I was able to see her but not really hold her. I also was recovering from my C-sec, so i was in some serious pain.. after the 24 hours Eden's ...

          Annora Eden Gonzalez                                                                     Born: July 16, 2017   @ 5:55 pm 8 lbs 19 1/2 inches I had the most ridiculous last moth of pregnancy, i went in for a reg checkup on a Wednesday June 28th . Had a reg cervix check Eden was Head down i was dilated 3 and 90% effaced. Everything was all good. i had an ultrasound right after to check on Edens weight because i had Ges diabetes while pregnant. Eden had flipped she was now laying across my stomach, so from my reg check up to two hours later she had flipped.the doctors said Eh its okay she still has some time to get into delivery position aka head down.  And i had started having contractions, they were still pretty far apart about 13 minutes apart. so nothin...

Being a Parent is SO hard, i literally live hour by hour. i have a house full of boys constantly making a mess, eating, fighting, Mom mom mom is what i hear all day.. I think to my self sometimes how do other parents do this. How in the world do parents keep their shit together and be a mom.. Well they don't and just because i see what i see on social media doesn't mean its real. and I've learned a lot of that lately.  There are so many MOMS in the same boat that i am in, stressed over worked under paid and total Mombies.. It literally takes every ounce of energy that i have to get up in the morning . before the kids i might add and cook breakfast. I mean i am currently 39 weeks pregnant, huge and exhausted. lol but i literally hear my alarm and wished my kids would forget about breakfast and just sleep. oh what i would give for some sweet sweet sleep. Yet hear i am, all boys are sound asleep and i am just up typing and eating cubed cheese. Silence is bliss let me tell y...

    Recently i have read a lot of people's , anger,sadness, disappointment, fears and frustrations.. And a lot of it is based on a certain situation that took place in the small town we live in. A lot of people have really just..come to blows over it... A innocent child was hurt. horribly hurt, no child deserves what this child has been going through... And a lot of people are more focused on trying to prove weather or not this certain person had something to do with this child's injuries.. The professionals, have done their jobs. They have recovered evidence, they have come to the conclusion that what this person says happened to the child, just doesn't make sense. Medical professionals have done their jobs and i'm sure are continuing to do so.. And have brought fourth what they believe have happened, based on the evidence...      I have read over and over and over. from a number of people "God will reveal the truth, or we are praying the truth come fourth" ...

Photos from Eden's baby shower this past weekend! So much fun and Eden is SO loved..

Sometimes i wake up in the morning, roll out of bed. actually i like twitch out of bed with my big ole 8 month pregnant belly. walk into the dining area hoping to myself " please let the house be clean, please let the house be clean. In hopes that when my husband released me from sahm duties two hours before the boys bed time, the night before. . He would somehow magically get  all boys to clean house for Momma! Fail!! Instead i am greeted with this horrid smell and kissed with an over whelming amount of dishes and my children are all up asking for breakfast.. Who said Stay at home MOM life was easy? No seriously, who even thinks that?!? The only reason i am actually sitting at me computer writing this is because all 4 of my boys are napping which as you can see from my last blog post doesn't happen all of the time. We have been up since 7 am have had 2 meals 2 snacks. my dishes are cleaned my house is in order. And as i am typing this all i can think about it a big ole Mar...